I love you

Dearest,

Perhaps you are underestimating. I did not left the meeting just like that.
This is my one last to chant for your happiness. I had throw that into the law of universe. Love can turn into hatred, however I don't hate you. But it also out compassion. I wish you can be more mature than who you are and able to take care of girls that really commit in love. You're absolutely right, you are not at all ready and unable truely give me for what I want.
You thought of shining through with all,"Japanese member friends", is your purely happiness. But unfortunately really... you crash your dream on your on hand.
you may not understand what I am trying to illustrate here, one day I wish to see you are applying N.D spirit in your TRUE FACE

D.A.H.O

weakness

I love you. Im very tired.

My Shadow of Fate

I hug my shadow and I tear in the bus morning and evening. Alone.

I miss you dearly. I wish you too...

You been telling my mission my mission, I don't quite understood.

Whether you just want to complete the mission and finish off; or is just a silent break that I can leave this behind...

I love you truly. and I do. I could only send you daimoku. Millions of abundant daimoku to help you on your good fortunes. All dreams and success chasing behind you.

Love

Carin

事实上我不理解你

事实上我不理解你

对你来说，我有多重要？

和你一起是我梦寐以求的事

但是我爱得越深

我整个人变得越讨人厌

所有我的缺点都出来了

我真的很想了解你

但是我发觉越来越难

这条路我走不下去了

分开冷静一下

但是再这样拖下去对大家都没好处

做回自己是我唯一的选择

相信这样会轻松得多

I try to see beyond just you and me

The place where I should be but the truth I feel will be revealed whenever you’re 

around

Everytime I see you, it just break my heart

How can I get used to us apart when eveytime I see you, it just break my heart

I thought in time that you would leave my mind

But how can I forget when you’re here so near?

And though I try, it cannot be denied

How can I get over losing you?

Everything I knew just fell apart

There’s just no getting over losing you

How to pick myself up anymore?

吐出心底话

关心是两方面的；不要只顾着去关心别人，有时候也要关心下自己。

原来我的问题一直都是垃圾问题和废话，我欠你的一定会还。

希望你能够成熟的处理善后事，不要再拖泥带水。大家痛苦，不会幸福。

女人的青春有限，浪费时间只能带来痛苦。

I can be Happy start from now on!

Dearest,

Finally, I can smile from the bottom of my heart :) I'm wearing the best make up ever and best sleeping mask from now on! yes yes yes!

Good night ;)

Xoxo

Blue Friday

Dearest,

Wake up in the morning, sleep too much. Taking pics at D zzz.
Coc level 8 upgraded. 

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Someone working at home.

Wash bed linens and blankets.

Made Myojo for D, Penang Curry for myself.

Rjrju left Millionaire; his face 180 degree changed. 

Gave notebook he needed for Jap, he Thanks x3? I only heard once except mad at me the way I speak again.

He said going to LH place chanting at 7pm. Last night told me getting flute as I am the last to know what is going on. I am very upset being treated in this way.

Forgot wallet and get it down for D...

Chanting and gongyo in room as someone speaking on phone whole noon.

Very upset... 

The music fill up my loneliness and emotions...

Planning to have dinner in city before meeting up A.M at station for Yuko's chanting. I need that motivation to be better, not being influential by environment.

I know, he won't be here for me tonight. Very busy for everything. No one see my appreciation, I will pay my debt of gratitude for you. Hold my tears and anger.

Talk to you soon again.

xoxo