女人的心

你可知道
當女人被男人脫去自己的衣服
一絲不掛的在他面前
是需要多少的愛

你可知道
女人為什麼會背朝你睡
因為她不喜歡看你的背影
如果你以後抱著她睡
她會安心一整個晚上

你可知道
女人把每一次的愛情
當作是初戀
也是這輩子最後一個來愛

你可知道
女人那麼愛吃醋不是因為不相信你
而是你在她心中太美好
她不希望這種美好倒映在別的女人眼中

你可知道
深愛你的女人在沖你發火以後
自己卻轉身不斷哭泣

你可知道
當女人頂著哭花的臉
走在街上
不管是不是有人在看她時
她的心已經快要死了

你可知道
她只會對她愛的男人嘮叨
也只會對她在乎的人耍性子

你可知道
她的任性 她的壞脾氣
其實都只是在對你撒嬌
希望你更重視她

你可知道
假若她不愛你
她根本不會對你發火
不會希望你去哄她
更不會為你掉眼淚
因為她不愛的人沒那本事

你可知道
當你離開她
留下她獨自一人
她有多大的期待和恐懼
而這一切都只是因為她愛你
而這一切都因為你還不夠懂她
女人知道太多不該知道的事情
男人不知道太多該知道的事情

於是.你們爭吵.你認為她脾氣不好.
她認為你不夠遷就她……
於是.你們冷戰.你以為她沒有完全接受你，
她以為你不在乎她……
請給她一個擁抱一個吻.用你的擁抱你的吻
去化解她心裡的悲傷和眼角的淚水.
因為她只是害怕你的冷漠、轉身和安靜

兩個深愛的人在一起，就要
互相包容，互相理解，互相體諒，互相信任，
否則當你們真正失去時將會遺憾終生
否則美好的未來也就在你們自己手中泯滅了！ 
希望每一個男人都能夠好好珍惜陪伴在你身邊的女人
她們為你付出過，不求回報 卻希望你們能夠讀懂， 
能夠牽著她們的手堅定地走下去
不要讓愛你的女人流淚
不要讓她傷心 更不要讓她絕望和死心！
因為女人一旦真愛了，失去她愛著的人
就意味著失去了整個世界...

Pre-Birthday Celebration!

My surprise is I have a visitor in Melbourne almost end of July ! She was a friend of mine during Flight Attendance Preparatory Course in Centuria back to year 2007. We are not very close but we are like a big family that time when were studying together. It was 4 years ago since we were last met!


I brought her to The Pancake Parlour inside Melbourne Central. I was planning to go for Mercadante but her bf was unable to join us due to work. Therefore it would be good option to stay around city because she walks to here from Park Hyatt Melbourne Hotel We chat a lot about previous, present and future lol! Seems like so far, but she is getting married next year probably July! I feel bad :( cause I cannot join her wedding. Miss her so much now! 


She bought me a present >.< and she treat me for dinner. Argh... I have such a wonderful friend. I am glad we could become friend :)


On the other hand, Low posted birthday wishes on my FB wall hehe I am looking forward the rest of the days until my birthday Sunday!


Sister had booked King Tut exhibition and 3D movie tickets! Can't wait to go for now! OMG! I am over the top ! hehe

Think HD! Think Positive! Welcome day!

So... I received my certificate IV in advertising results on Monday 25 July 2011. What makes me surprise was I got all High Distinction for all my subjects. Obviously, it is pass with flying colour! 


Regardless, I am very happy with the result and effort that has been made. On the other hand, I am feeling very pressure because of semester 2 in Diploma. Why? Because I am not good at writing radio commercial or Persuasive Copy. To me, it was totally shit of craps! 


How can I unwind my pressure? I need some help out there =(


Today Victoria University has a welcoming semester two activities and information day at Telford building Footscray Nicholson campus. 


I was told that there are *FREE FOOD* I blink my eyes as large as possible. Hooray! After Ron class has ended, Kyra, Becky and Damiano three of us went pass the Telford building and grab our food! We had only choice which was sandwich with choices of chicken or sausage roll, salads and onions. Yummy! They even prepared spring bottle water for us to drink! You know, in Australia bottle water usually cost $3 and above! I have never bought any bottle water since I was in Melbourne Airport waiting for flight back to 2009. 


There was a lot of information to grab such as counselling, wizard job, clubs, VUSU and ISA. I got myself THREE free bags! I need them and I love them. Sweets, bangles, chocolate, water bottle, can of lemon squash soda and many more! We have to play games in order to get the free bottle and drinks. Even though I have lost in the game, they still giving out the free gift because we enjoyed the process. =) There are TV with wii sports game in the corner and some of them plays guitar hero outside of the entrance. Overall, I am very happy on the day for engaging the university. I think we should have FREE FOOD at least once in a month! LOL 

Hatred

Hate myself so much...

I can understand the meaning 'life is about experiencing...' 

but I just don't do it like what I said

I think I am a failure...I cannot overcome my ego

之所以这么想当全班最优秀的学生是因为前所未拥有过这个胜利的骄傲。在马来西亚，我是不可能会有这样的成绩！

我一直觉得我需要见counsellor，因为我一直认为学业上的一切是为了和别人竞争，让自己胜利，赢，名利

可能是受到在大马的学习环境影响下产生了这种状况，什么都要和人争赢，要成为最好，最出色的。

从出生到现在，好像都没有做过任何出息的事情。做坏的就一大堆！

为什么我那么执著成果？赢了全世界又如何呢？名和利真的很重要？

I find it difficult and I don't think I have any positive abilities to persuade people to give me that job. What if I couldn't persuasive people to hire me?

I always compare myself toward others. I'm not happy about myself.

It's about your own future. They are nothing to your future...

How can I improve my writing skills?

I feel awful

Very dissatisfied about today. =(

Maybe teachers believes I have the ability to cope well now. So they haven't given much attentions to me.

Well, at least should give some eye-contact during lectures...

There are 5 new students from various background. There are 1 girl which she previously haven't complete a Cert IV but meant to be to do it later.

I felt unfair to us because she hasn't started the basic. Perhaps to me only! 1 guy from the other campus previous studied from other campus cert IV in marketing which he had bad experienced. He said his class was 3x larger than our class. I think that's horrified. 1 girl from Texas. 2 girls unknown. Basically, the 3 girls talked a lot rubbish in the middle of the lectures...

I know it's silly and selfish to say I don't like them. And we have to meet different people in our life. I think I stay too much in my comfort zone.

My worries which are unable to maintain my marks well. I understood the learning process is important than the result. But it is too difficult for me to unwind myself. I don't know why. I hate myself now. Perhaps I should chant more and hope gohonzon provide me wiser wisdom to deal with everything.

The library has been renovated and move into new area which is massive and beautiful like the other campus Footscray Park near to my apartment.

More shelves and computer now and that's mean I can read and borrow more books! More seating areas and innovative lounge decoration.

气死人

我总是觉得鬼佬很喜欢欺负我！

上上次买东西找少钱给我，赖我给错钱

上次去银行开户口就打错我的名字；这次报纸不肯寄第二次来，又不给我自己去拿！

气死人！不要以为华人就很好欺负！不要以为看样就是中国来的，越南来的！

还说澳洲不是种族歧视的国家，我觉得墨尔本的鬼佬就是神经病！

I think I have the right to get my stuff because I had paid!

Abandoned Blog

Sadly, I have abandoned my blog for ages...

Welcome back to myself here!

I must continue having courage to blog again without ending...

Today is my last Friday in this month to have holiday.

Starting from next week, my timetable for new semester would be Thursday off.

Hate it so much to have a off day on Thursday because I prefer Friday like used to be in last semester. Friday can relax and have the peace of mind for meditation.

Can't wait to get back to uni to enjoy the stressful studies again like previously had.

Another tough challenge waiting for me to face!

Ganbatte Carin-san!