Disappointment

Got the email again from Victoria University, this time it hurt me a lot... My mood is nervous break collapse. So disappointed... Here's the email written below.

I apologise for the confusion. I have spoken with our legal department about the discrepancy with the course duration.

Unfortunately it appears that there is conflicting information with our TAFE courses in Advertising. There is a chance that the discrepancy may mean the course will not run in 2010. I will need to clarify this further but until then I don’t want to mislead you. There may be changes to the course and its future in 2010 is unclear. Until the matter is resolved I am sorry to inform you that the course is unavailable. I have only just learned this information myself so I really do apologise for not being able to tell you earlier.

However, you might want to consider the option of studying the Diploma of Business and Enterprise instead. This is a secure course which is extremely popular. Essentially the course is a generalist business diploma which then articulates into all of our Bachelor of Business programs. If you are interested in studying at Bachelor level this is an excellent pathway. Unfortunately you won’t get to specialise from day one, but you will still be able to study within your area of interest and continue on to specialise at Bachelor level if you choose. Students who complete this course are eligible to enter any of our Bachelor of Business programs at second year level.

You can find out more about this course at http://www.vu.edu.au/courses/international/diploma-of-business-and-enterprise-3113c0207.

I will be out of the office next week so if you have any further questions I recommend you contact one of my colleagues, any of whom will be happy to assist.

I have put so much effort on researching until I felt myself cause people feel ignoring. In the end, I really get nothing. I no longer young age and wasted so many years of youth to persuade study. I feel so shameful and useless.

Brother told me, well can go TAFE not just VU. And why you want to do advertising anyway. Any good advertising jobs out there?

I explained to him, People cannot leave advertising no matter in newspapers, tv commercial, billboards, banners, flyers or even internet websites. Although they are not so important in life but they do inspire people of the Brand, sending the message to attract people, to brain wash people to buy their products. Advertising firm is very busy world indeed they really have a good income like your job do. I enjoyed working in research firm like my ex-company did.. Unfortunately, I'm not qualified to become a researcher. Thus, I had compared both Advertising program between Malaysia and Australia.

The units they offered are all totally different.

However, I don't want to waste pa money and I just want to try to experience study for few months from Australia. Another point is VU offer the main point I'm concerned the most that is the shortest duration to complete the course. The worst regret thing I've done was I'm unable to visit the school during the time I spent in Melbourne.

Dad told me, It's normal to feel dis-appointment but don't let it get you down. Anyway, It's still uncertain that VU may not have this course. Could be there may not have enough students for this course. There are other Uni or college that offer this course as TAFE is an Australian and will not be dis-continued. When you have time, do drop by IDP to check. The persons there will be glad to help. Do not worry about money. When sis and bro were in uni, only dad was working and sis n bro were able to complete their studies. Now, dad, mum, sis n bro are working so definitely there will be money for you to complete your studies.

Take care of yourself. The bad news doesn't mean it's the end of the world.

My tears just drop whenever I read this email. I felt more sham on myself! My dad is old enough to support us. He never want to gain back any return. He support us whenever we need. Dad had sacrificed too much...

Sister told me to,

1. concentrate on your ielts.

2. chant hard. there is nothing you can do until they get back to you if you have your heart set on advertising from day one. business is too general, imo.

Feel speechless...All of them supporting me.

Myself only know how to cry like a baby. I'm childish but you can see my mature side. I concerned for so many factor. I thought I could stay at there to complete the course in that 0.5year. Why? Because it had a short term for me to understand the education over there. In additional, the short duration would allow me to have time to test whether I could cope to their education style or not. In fact, the location is very convenient as my sister is working nearby and easy for me to keep in touch with her if emergency happens. And the course end before summer holiday, so I could have time to go back Malaysia to attend my sister wedding which held on Christmas Day. Why? Because I promised to be her bridesmaid. Thus, without wasting the money hardly earn by my dad, sister and brother, if my sister is moving out when her house had build later then I still can share the rent with brother until I completed the course. Further more, the course separate in 3 papers award Certificate, Diploma and Advance Diploma. So it doesn't make me feel like tie up like what Malaysia did. After you had complete the Certificate you could have a vacation or temporary working then later you can continue again without forcing you to complete in 2 and half year for Diploma Advertising in Malaysia. Like you had paid for the course now, you want to continue or leave and gain nothing in the end? Like what I have done before in Taylor communication school for just one semester. Wasting money, wasting time, retaking whole course just because you had fail in the exam.

Ed said I am too concentrated on the self education. Yes I am of course, this is what I want for so many years! But the facts above I have mentioned shows the support that I am not selfish thinker! I can't see what have I done wrong?

What do you think?